An Honor to be Your Child

Blog Entry AN HONOR TO BE YOUR CHILD Jul 8, ’08 10:26 AM
for everyone

For the past few weeks, I’ve been to different situations where I needed to use my own coping mechanisms(I ate a lot)… My own instincts in decision making… My own experiences as examples…

Of course, like “Ate Maan was always saying, “Ako ang nagkukwento ng story ng life ko, so ako lagi ang bida sa story ko.”, I decided on few big things which I thought were right according to what I have thought of what it is to be right…

I thought of PROTECTION (for other people): but then again, my motive may be right in any aspect, but I wasn’t able to anticipate that my motive alone was not enough to protect those persons… In my case, I wasn’t able to protect them because there were people who doesn’t know how to do the same thing as I was doing, rather, they cared for their own stuffs, in which, they already forgot mine… Rather, they don’t really care about mine, or they just know nothing about mine…

I thought of SECURITY (for us): I decided to put our situation in a box because  I thought, by doing so, the persons I have been protecting would feel the security, that me as an Ate/ Friend to them, they would feel the care I have for them. And that by doing so, they would feel protected because there will be or lesser rebukes will be given to them…

I thought of ASSURANCE(from the people): Actually, I’ve asked for it… But then again, even if I will receive  thousand words of assurance from them, there would still be those people who can’t hold on to what they have given to people… to me… Those Words…their words…. I don’t blame people… I am not angry either… Maybe a bit disappointed, but of course, my forgiveness to them has been released…=) I have been a disappointed to a lot of people actually… I’ve been there, so I understand the situation…

I thought of SECRECY: In my life, I have so many things that I am not sharing to people because I am believing that it won’t help if I’d tell them, especially if they are not involved… But then, just lately, I decided to put some things in secret even to those who are accountable to those people… I know what I did wasn’t right,  but I held on to my decision, and took the full responsibility of it…

The DISAPPOINTMENT: I was disappointed of course, who wouldn’t be, but relationships are more important than any other issue, so I chose to support them still… My Supports were not worthy, they were not worthy, but see, I have learned…

JUST TONIGHT:

I accepted the fact that my decisions weren’t right before God, and before the people in front of me..And that I wasn’t really able to protect the people I have been protecting. Not my fault of course, but if I took the precautionary measure of telling the situation to accountable persons, the situation shouldn’t have been worse… That, my fault… They might have been a great help, sort of protectors, but then again, I was late… my decision to do the right thing was late…

And what amazed me was that, I felt that I am worth the blame… I am not proud because of what I have done, but aside from being a Child of God (I know I am), I felt so proud when a couple took courage to talk to me, to tell me that I was wrong, and that I was forgiven…Why? I felt their love for me, for us… I can feel it -how they care for my siblings… for us…It’s worth the while…

TO MA’AM INGRID: You just don’t know how we salute your leadership in our lives, and how much we adore you… You are such an encouragement, and that we are so proud that we are part of you…

TO PTR. VER: Before, I was scared of you… But then, it just happened, tonight. You made me feel that I am One of you Children… And it would be my pride and honor to be called your Child… Thank you… And we love you…

TO GABBY: I am hoping to see you…8 more months…I’m excited… We want to serve your family… As for me and my siblings, WE WILL SERVE YOU…

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zafinayaffa
zafinayaffa wrote on Jul 8, ’08
OMG. Ptr. Ver, Ma’am Ingrid, Gabby, Sophia, tira-tira! 😀

prinzesmaan
prinzesmaan wrote on Jul 8, ’08
i’m happy for you dawin:)

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