This morning, to the nth time, I woke up crying because I saw my burial. I got shot in the chest. And some more weird things happening.
This is the last conversation I remember.
Woman: There are a lot of people crying. Why are you crying? Are you not prepared?
Dawin: Just scared that I might not end up in heaven. Though if there is one reason why I should be happy leaving, it’s the thought that I will e able to be with the Lord already.
And then I heard the Lord suddenly, He asked me, “Gusto mo ba ngayon na?”
I answered “Hindi pa po.”
And then i woke up.
Now I wonder, what could have it been when I said “yes.”
I know there is a need for me to make my life worth living, and I need to do some fixing, repairs or whatever.
Ate Charm said I need to talk to my leader, and I need to ask God’s wisdom for the real message that he’s been telling me. I really don’t understand.
Another dream is me always finding coins in the sand in different places. The meaning? I’m being narcissistic, and I don’t wanna be. That’s why I wrote this blog, to remind me that Yes, I am a narcissistic person. Its time to be humble this time…
I love you Lord. I want honesty in every area of my life. I need guidance. I need love, I need comfort, I need a hug.