I Get Jealous Too!

Blog Entry I GET JEALOUS TOO! Apr 27, ’09 12:49 PM
for everyone

Yes, I was so apprehensive by a rival in affection or favor lately. In short, i was jealous. To whom specifically? Well, later…:)

I am one of those people who usually don’t miss people a lot. The very reason is that I am an unhealthy ‘misser’. I tend to get hurt most of the time. What hurts the most is that the other person is not feeling the same way. So I’m telling everyone not to expect from me, that I would not miss them. And if I would, I would just tell them of course!It’s my prerogative, it’s my defense mechanism…

 

Friend: Dawin, I miss you! Do you miss me?

Dawin: No,I don’t.

Friend: Do you love me?

Dawin: Yes, of course.

 

Me being jealous is just a part of me being  unsecured. Haha! Yeah, I’m confident in some areas but in special cases, i tend to be so insecure. It’s a good thing though, because i only get jealous when the person is special enough for me to feel such unkind feeling. Weeeeh!  i feel jealous to a lot of people actually. No, i don’t envy people because of what they have, but because of who they have. Most of the time, I want to be that person ‘you’ wants me to be, whenever, wherever.

I’m not jealous because I am alone, but because you are, and I am not the one you called. 🙂

Hm, it’s nothing actually.

I can understand things. I want to understand things. I know the fact that I can’t be everything to anyone, not to my family, not to my students, not to my friends. And I already accepted the reality that I won’t be called anytime whenever someone needs a hand, maybe, just maybe, ‘they’ have someone who has a better hand.

 

Yes, I get jealous when my siblings won’t come to me first when they are not feeling well, but instead would come to their bestfriends first.

-they already know it and I got by… I’m used to it now.

 

Yes, i get jealous when my mom won’t talk to me after talking to all of them.

-i love her enough not to question her actions. things happen…

 

Yes, I get jealous when Ate Maan would call our friends and not me.

-I understand that she’s busy and is not always in the mood to talk to all of us.

 

Yes, I get jealous when I see a friend who says he’s missing me and yet he’s not available for me, but available for his other friends.

-i understand that I am not his only friend.

 

Yes, I get jealous when our dog would jump whenever Xoy says “Jump!”, and when I say it, he would just lay down there.

-i know he’s not always in the mood, so i would buy him “chupachups’ as a bribe.

 

Yes, I get jealous when God would bless his children and not me.

-I so love God that I understand that it’s not my time yet, but He would definitely bless me and my family.

 

Yes, I am a jealous person, and I don’t want to be.

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jpau15
jpau15 wrote on Apr 27, ’09
waaaa!!!…. patama etoh.. hehehe..

ahm.. d cgru ako un isa dun. hahaha..

nwei, it’s good that your jealous… it means that u want to own me… hahaha!!

no worries. i’m yours. =) durutdutdutdutdut…

nilhelediel
nilhelediel wrote on Apr 27, ’09
aha!
LOLzzzz
^____^v

hatewednesday
hatewednesday wrote on Apr 27, ’09
hmmmmm….
aaaahhhh…..
eeehhhhh…..
iiiiiihhhhh……
ou healthy yan ate.. pagpatuloy mo..

trashtolife
trashtolife wrote on Apr 28, ’09
acceptance hurts… but surely it will set your feet to another level of maturity. Welcome to the challenging world!

xoysuey
xoysuey wrote on Apr 28, ’09
Yes, i get jealous when my mom won’t talk to me after talking to all of them.

-i love her enough not to question her actions. things happen…

Haha!! Ako din!!!!^^

raven025
raven025 wrote on Apr 28, ’09
Haha ewan ko lang kung ako eh adik bang tunay, kc naman kinilig ako sa Blog haha!! LOL!!

blackhairedcreature
blackhairedcreature wrote on Apr 28, ’09
raven025 said

Haha ewan ko lang kung ako eh adik bang tunay, kc naman kinilig ako sa Blog haha!! LOL!! 

Haha, talagang kinilig?!

Nga pala, yung socks, nasa akin pa. Di pa tayo nagpapang-abot eh…

-Ate

kramthet
kramthet wrote on Apr 28, ’09

Yes, I get jealous when God would bless his children and not me.

-I so love God that I understand that it’s not my time yet, but He would definitely bless me and my family. 

True. Definitely!

Marami c Lord pang Bless, di nauubos. 😀

BY THE GOD OF YOUR FATHER WHO WILL HELP YOU,
AND BY THE ALMIGHTY WHO WILL BLESS YOU WITH
BLESSINGS OF HEAVEN ABOVE.
( GENESIS 49:25 * NKJV )

hatewednesday
hatewednesday wrote on Apr 29, ’09
Uy nga pala!!!

musta na kayo ni boy amazed????

ahihihihihi……:)

astaldohiliel
astaldohiliel wrote on Apr 30, ’09
naks naman!
nice blog…

i can relate

hugs*!

sweetmau
sweetmau wrote on Apr 30, ’09
sometimes it’s healthy to release the awful feelings we have inside because it only proves that we are human and can’t live all by ourselves. Muah! miss our talk, hehe, be safe always!

zafinayaffa
zafinayaffa wrote on May 1, ’09

Yes, I get jealous when my siblings won’t come to me first when they are not feeling well, but instead would come to their bestfriends first.

-they already know it and I got by… I’m used to it now. 

Oh yea. I remember the first time you told us that you were jealous! Haha..

prinzesmaan
prinzesmaan wrote on May 11, ’09

Yes, I get jealous when Ate Maan would call our friends and not me.

-I understand that she’s busy and is not always in the mood to talk to all of us. 

iloveyou dawin.,

well..i don’t call or talk to anyone these days.,
magic 8 lang kayo diba?

fair enough? lol^^

prinzesmaan
prinzesmaan wrote on May 11, ’09

Yes, I get jealous when I see a friend who says he’s missing me and yet he’s not available for me, but available for his other friends.

-i understand that I am not his only friend. 

juan paulo rayo.,
HE ang pronoun, ikaw toh!
😀

blackhairedcreature
blackhairedcreature wrote on May 11, ’09

juan paulo rayo.,
HE ang pronoun, ikaw toh!
😀

Ay, eh…

“he” kasi general…:)

charmingcharm
charmingcharm wrote on May 13, ’09

Friend: Dawin, I miss you! Do you miss me?

Dawin: No,I don’t. 

Sounds familiar, huh?

It takes more than enough courage sometimes to admit that you actually miss someone. hehehe

prinzesmaan
prinzesmaan wrote on May 13, ’09

It takes more than enough courage sometimes to admit that you actually miss someone. hehehe 

some consider it a weakness kasi.,
pathetic people!

heartchiq08
heartchiq08 wrote on Jun 20, ’09
everything that happened have their dark and bright reason and it’s good that you’re always on the bright side.

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